Be still...

"Be still and know that I am God. I will be praised in all the nations; I will be praised throughout the earth." Psalms 46:10

God spoke this scripture to me this morning and as usual it was exactly what I need to hear today. I am feeling restless today. There are plenty of reasons why but ultimately what it comes down to is God is working patience in me. I don't like patience... I was perfectly content with the amount of patience I thought I had! 

I have started this new journey of homeschooling my daughter. Some days we are on fire getting things done and I LOVE watching her face as she realizes she has learned something new and watching her master it. Then there are days like today where we want to ship one another off to a distant country! I think her ADHD has rubbed off on me, because we are feeding off one another's inability to focus today! 

So many questions swirl through my mind regarding how I am going to do this with her...God has given me the vision of what I need to do as a self-employed mom, but I don't quite see the fruits of that yet...My leave of absence expiration date is coming up and so that means crunch time for some hard decisions I have to make...God and I are having some serious conversations regarding what Chandra wants to do on so many levels and trying to get clarity on what God wants Chandra to do...I know there is going to be sacrifice either way. 

My kids and I definitely enjoy this "Mom being home" thing, crazy how just my presence of being here with them brings a whole to new calm to the normal chaos. It's just a different level of chaos now! They exhaust me just the same, but we are all in a happy, peaceful place. They have experienced some storms but I have watched all my children mature in new ways, and come out stronger through it...Just like those dreams I told you ladies about, they really came to pass, I was the captain of the ship trying to adjust the sails for them, responsible for keeping them protected through it all. I feel beyond blessed that God has had them covered and protected fighting every step of the battles for me...as I knew He would.  

So with all this, He reminds me- Be still and know that I am God. I will be praised in all the nations; I will be praised throughout the earth. 

What that means is He is saying, Chandra, I got this. My desire for you and your family is that I be praised, and I WILL BE. In everything I have set before you and called you to, it is I that will be praised. 

Can't argue much with that...though I try! But He holds me close and quiets me every time. The worst of the storm is over. There is always the rainbow, the clean skies, fresh air and PEACE after the storm...I can rest and be calm because that's exactly where we are headed!  

So yes, patience is being grown while my faith is tested tried and true. I go through it just like everyone else. I know my conscience is clear and I have kept myself before God doing what He has asked me to do... Restless days like today come to try and plant that lie that things won't ever change or that breakthrough isn't coming... REJECT IT... Stand firm in who you are in Him! Be still, know that HE is God and that He has declared that He will get all the glory and praise. He already has your battle WON! 

Til next time,

~C