Hey everyone... As you may have seen on Facebook, this week has been a crazy week, but I have seen and felt God's grace and presence in it for sure! It started with a couple of very close calls with serious car accidents, including almost being run off the freeway by a semi truck. Then, Tuesday as I was in the middle of the many taxi runs I do for my children, my brain mixed up the order in which I MEANT to strategize my transports. As I sat there beating myself up as to how I mixed up what I wanted to do, I hear a loud flapping sound from under my car that didn't sound good. My son was with me, and thankfully we were close to his high school for practice. When I got there I saw that the inside of my front passenger tire had unraveled and was making that flapping noise.
Now, I could've cussed (haven't quite been delivered from that yet), I could've gotten upset and wondered how on earth I am going to pay for it...But instead I thanked God because I realized then and there WHY I mixed things up. If I hadn't, I would've been on the freeway and that would have been a very dangerous situation with 2 of my kids in the car. I was blessed to be able to replace it with a brand new tire for $30!
After it was replaced, I had to go back due to a funny noise my car was making after they changed it. I used that wait time to witness to a woman who was waiting with me- who happened to be an advocate for the county I work for! What the tire guys then told me blew me away...They found ANOTHER tire with blisters on it, WAITING to blow out on me, and you know what? They replaced that one with a new tire for FREE!!!!
Through the near accidents and the tire issues, I felt a big fat red bulls eye on my forehead! But I tell you what, I felt even stronger the protective arms of my Heavenly Father! But the enemy of our soul didn't want to stop there... The air conditioner in my house has gone out and I have a landlord fighting me on who is going to pay for it. And if you aren't from California let me just tell you, Sacramento's forecast consists of the next 3 or 4 days of being in the hundreds, we are baking in this house already!
The list could go on & on....I would be LYING to you if I told you I didn't want to curl into my usual spiritual fetal position. I would be lying to you if I told you I didn't start to panic. I would be lying to you if I told you I didn't want to start griping at God. BUT I didn't. A friend on Facebook posted a status that said.. "STOP TRIPPIN' I GOT THIS!!! -GOD ...In other words, "Don't panic...I got it all under control!!!" -Dad" BOOM! Chandra, that was for you!
I then heard a message from the Confessions of a Single Christian (awesome FB page, like it if you haven't already!) leader that reminded me, all in His timing. That my promise has a PURPOSE and my promise will come... Those were just SOME of the little blessings to remind me... I'm going to another level. I'm climbing higher than I have ever climbed before. That means I've got to act like it... I need to get my butt in my Word when I want to go fetal. I need to crank up that worship music and worship my heart out! Not call a friend, call a leader begging for prayer..not that we can't do that, but I need to run to worship- not worry and run!
I'm actually pretty proud of myself to be able to say tonight I did just that! I locked myself in my room and WORSHIPED! Nothing like some Hillsong to usher in God's presence. Don't get me wrong, I cried my eyes out during worship. I released some wailing in the midst of my arms raised, and the Lord whispered to me... "It's ok." I realized that my crying to Him was OKAY because what mattered was I was WORSHIPING Him through the hurt. He wasn't asking me to be tough or a robot. He just wanted to hear me tell Him I love Him through it. And slowly the peace that surpasses all understanding flooded me. I felt like I could just lay back and relax in His lap, because He's got me. He knows I've got more month and bills left than I do money coming. He knows the kids and I are burning up in this house... He KNOWS.. and He hears my cries... and I know I passed the test this evening. I did exactly what His queen would do... I'm walking the walk of believing in things hoped for but not seen. Walking by faith in all His promises and not by sight. I'm on that water, baby!!!
Til next time....
~C
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